Think Create - Leon Grey's Blog

I have a confession to make……  I have a massively overblown ego, this huge part of my personality and has been with me all my life. My ego has been created from all the good but mostly bad experiences that I have had in the past.

Lately I have started to really hate and dispise my ego.  See not only does you ego give you brash confidence in some areas it also limits you endlessly through over protection.

Take for example.  I am wanting to get into TV commercials and a bit of acting, but because of my ego’s, fear of looking stupid or making mistakes, I have procrastinated.  This procrastination has gone on for at least 8 months and its really eating me up.

Over the years my ego has gradually developed into a second personality.  So if you speak to me, sometimes you may get my ego, armor and all, or sometimes you will get the real Leon.  Very rarely will you see the real Leon because the ego first duty is to protect, the soft heart underneath.  My ego has been so dominant that it has become my prime personality.  How scarey is that!

Here’s an interesting thought, is my ego part of me or is it a seperate personality made to shield me from the feelings of pain and rejection?  I am uncertain about this and need to do further reading to the field.

Sitting here writing about this topic is giving me a slight dull ache in the centre of my back, and what this is, is the feeling of vuneralibity.  Exposing the real Leon and who I really am makes my ego nervous and naturally does not want this to happen and is showing me by making me feel scared to write this blog.

This truly feels so liberating, to dig through all the crap and to push aside the ego that has controlled you for all your life and making the first break through.

In my younger days I was a fat little asian boy with a not so flattering surname, (not the one I use today), and was teased constantly, I just wanted to disappear and not be noticed.  This is when my ego was born.  As years went on and my size became bigger my ego developed a more aggressive approach to bullying and teasing.  Underneath this tough ego exterior was and still is a scared little boy who is afraid to be judged and to scared to show the real Leon, for fear of being ridiculed.

So right now I have a predicament, I have the Leon that wants to be fearless and do what ever he wants and I have the protective armor of ego saying” Don’t do it because you will get judged and hurt by what people say about you.

Heres an example of how my ego has stopped me achieving what I want in life.  Throughout all the books I have read there is one thing I have learnt, if you want to be the best in something, find a person that has achieved it and emulate that person. This is because that person has gone through all the road bumps and mistakes, and in this way you can avoid those mistakes.  But my ego tells me, no, I want to do it my way, I want to cut my own trail so I can feel that I have dont it all by my self.  So now I am still cutting through and making misttakes when I could easily find someone who has achieved what I want and simply emulate them.

Right now there is an internal war, and its between the ego and the true Leon that is fighting to escape his self imposed cell.

Interestingly my ego wants to do all the tv acting etc, but its the True Leon that has decided that it wont be the ego that stars, it will be the true Leon that stars.

Confusing I know!

So my question to you is, have you got control of your ego or does it control you?

I wish you all the best in your battle as mine has only just begun.

Smile!

Leon

…..and why do I say this? Well because of the freedom of choice! The free world has somehow overlooked the simply power of choice. 99% of humans in the world exercise their power of choice for the smaller things, such as

• Which laundry detergent should I buy?
• Krispy Kreme or Donut King? (I would choose Krispy Kreme)
• Should I stick to beer tonight or go the spirits?

Now I’m not saying that these choices are in any way insignificant, I am saying that there is much more greater power in choice than we care to use. Here’s a really basic example for you, you wake up in the morning and are preparing to go to work. In a few quick seconds you can choose to be happy, excited and motivated to go to work to tackle the great challenges put in front of you or you can choose the attitude of depression because the work you do is tough and the days are so long. It’s incredible what that quick choice can do to your entire day.

Now think of all the people that choose this negative attitude everyday of their life. I am sure you have met these people, they lack motivation and everything always goes wrong for them. On the other hand I bet you have met excited and happy people always beaming happiness. Let me ask you who would you want to hang out with for a day? Now if you are the person that chooses the negative side of things, try choosing the positive side for a week and see what happens to your day and how people react to you. You will be amazed that the attitude you choose is what makes your day, week and life.

My life is incredible, I have a fantastic job, a beautiful and loving partner and my out look on life is incredibly happy and prosperous. Let me tell you now, I feel incredibly rich, not just in the sense of money but in all parts of my life. It’s the choices that I have made to make me feel this way. I hope you can take something out of this entry and try put it into your life. It will only take a few seconds of your life, but it can mean the rest of your life.

I am doing so many things and my life is pretty full on but I enjoy every second of it. Currently I am doing the 30 Day challenge with a great team of people. I would personally like to thank Ed Dale for his generosity in teaching us how to launch successful internet businesses for free. I am also researching to get my White Water Rafting Guiding certificate, this is so I can take adventurous people on wild adrenaline packed adventures on the white water. I have recently joined a fantastic mastermind group and we hope to support each other in building our businesses. I have one more thing that I am doing…. but that is a secret.

Till next time

I wish you abundance, success and happiness

I love the opera, its such a emotional form of entertainment, gives me shivers up my spine when I hear a tenor hit one of his notes and draws it out. Bocelli is my favourite singer, his voice is perfect and has such strong emotion within it. Here are a couple of my favourite songs from Bochelli, please take the time to watch them as they will bring out certain emotions that you didn’t know you had.

Nessun Dorma – Bocelli

The Prayer – Bocelli & Celine Dion

Time to Say Goodbye – Bocelli & Sarah Brightman

He has such a wonderful voice, I hope you enjoy his work as much as I do

Hello all

My name is Leon and I was a blog virgin. I have decided that it was time to break away and just do it. So here it is my first blog….what do I do with it? Well I suppose I should tell you a little about myself. I have been described as an adventurer of sorts, my interests include white water rafting, rock climbing, mountain biking, abseiling and much more. On the other hand I have a love for the opera (Bochelli & Pavarotti) and also R&B music (Boys 2 Men). I work as a sales person for a global media company selling one of its online products. I love the computers and the Internet and whilst I love the outdoors I also have a strong pull to sit on my butt and do computer stuff.

Oh yes not to forget, a major passion of mine is charity. I love to help people, I have a world vision sponsor child in Peru and her name is Yennifer, she is so cute. My goal is to one day visit Peru and help build/fund schools and community projects.