Think Create - Leon Grey's Blog

It hit me right smack between the eyes! You might ask yourself right now, what hit me?  We’ll put simply, it’s life.  I have such a hectic schedule I don’t have too much time to do anything other than my set tasks for the day.  I have been concentrating heavily on acting for the last few weeks and the pressure is definitely starting to tell on me.  My performances have been second rate to say the least and I really  need to manage my nerves better.  The last two weeks have been quite stressful, I had a my performance review at work, where they sent a trainer from the east coast to see gaps in my abilities and also reworking of my character and monologue.  Stressed and exhausted is what I am feeling right now. 

I performed my monologue last night and it sucked…..I move my eye brows too much and use my hands to much, its the salesman in me.  I need to cut out the animation from my face as well.  I have hit the wall in regards to my acting capabilities and now have to train like heck to get on par with some of the other fantastic actors in the class.  As I was driving to work today I thought to myself, when can I officially say that I’m an actor?  I’m not sure I can comfortably say that because of my inconsistent performances,  I’ll ask the other students out there the same question and see what they tell me.

Heres a photo of me in my costume for my monologue.  My character is a soldier who killed an innocent child during a firefight in Afghanistan.  Simon, another actor in class kindly taped my monologue, Ill put it up once I get it converted into a smaller file.

This weekend I have a 3 Day casting workshop with Worldwide Screen Actors Online in conjunction with JC Casting, one of the biggest casting companies in Perth.  I must bring my A-game and perform to my best abilities because this could help me with breaking into TV advertisements and also still-shot catalogues.  There is quite a bit of money to be made in that side of the industry.

Confidence has been low and I really need a pick me up, I’m getting a little run down but I know it will be all worth it in the end. 

On a brighter note I have hit 97kg. Woohoo! I am doing fantastically well in the weight loss side of things so if i keep it up ill get to my goal of 90kg in no time.

As you guys know, things are going fantastically well in my life for 2010.  I’m learning new things, meeting new people, reconnecting with old friends and making opportunities and taking them.  My theory is that life is like an orange, squeeze everything out of it and make sure not to spill any juice (that’s are your wasted opportunities). 

I’m siting here in my home office looking around and noticed that whenever I look at my UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship) figurines, I get motivated and excited.  I have one figurine which clicks me into gear and wants me to keep fit.  Wanderlei Silva is my all time favourite fighter and he inspires me to become the fittest toughest mofo out there.  Check out the figurine and a real life image below. This guys is a brutal fighter, he takes his hits and throws them hard too.  Not only do I admire his fighting skills and strong physique, but most importantly his mental strength and his drive to win no matter how hard his fight is. This makes me into a more focus and stronger player in the game of life. 

I had personal training on Thursday and my trainer Mark said that if I lose one more kilo then I would have shedded 10 kilos since Janurary.  Thats huge!  I am definately on my way to the second milestone of 90kg.  Myfirst milestone was to get under 100kg which I did 2 weeks ago.  Once I make 90kgs I get to reward myself with a professional photoshoot for my actors portfolio, this is a driving motivation for me as I really want to get into acting on the screen.

Life is a fantastic journey, I like to avoid the well worn paths that everybody follows and make my own tracks. See you in the big wide world and hopefully we will cross tracks one day!