Comments on: Ego…..the war has just begun http://leongrey.com/2008/12/05/egothe-war-has-just-begun/ My acting journal Fri, 30 Jul 2010 12:49:45 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 By: Robyn http://leongrey.com/2008/12/05/egothe-war-has-just-begun/comment-page-1/#comment-1033 Robyn Mon, 19 Apr 2010 02:42:46 +0000 http://leongrey.com/?p=59#comment-1033 Hi Leon. I'm glad you finally got round to trying out acting. I hope that means you've come to some sort of arrangment with your ego :D Here are my thoughts anyway. I think that with age the ego lessens. I know that my ego has certainly dulled down since I have had to spend so much time alone. It is a constant battle though, which I think most people avoid. Its to difficult and complicated. Hi Leon.

I’m glad you finally got round to trying out acting. I hope that means you’ve come to some sort of arrangment with your ego :D

Here are my thoughts anyway. I think that with age the ego lessens. I know that my ego has certainly dulled down since I have had to spend so much time alone. It is a constant battle though, which I think most people avoid. Its to difficult and complicated.

]]> By: Anthony http://leongrey.com/2008/12/05/egothe-war-has-just-begun/comment-page-1/#comment-1020 Anthony Sat, 13 Mar 2010 00:44:00 +0000 http://leongrey.com/?p=59#comment-1020 And here I thought I was alone. Hi Leon, my name is Anthony. From the looks of it, it has been a while since this was posted. I hope you found the answer you were looking for. Assuming someone did answer you, might you be willing to share the answer with me? Like you, I have the same problem. I don't mean in general, I mean the exact same problem....the only differences we have are ethnicity and what we were teased about in grade school. Otherwise it was like I just wrote your whole blog. I took my ego a step further for preservation. He has a name and an complete personality separate from mine. He used to rule over me, however I was protected from anything. At one point there were two of them, both with names and different traits. I do not suffer from Multiple Personality because I am aware of what is happening and I understand the dynamic and use for the ego. I, the scared little boy from the past, used them to hide and protect me because I was so afraid to be judged like I was all my young years. I am what most people call a fragile soul, easily hurt and beaten by the ignorant cruelty of most people. Guess that's just how some people are. Fortunately, because of our ability to be very empathetic (sometimes to a fault), we make excellent actors. I too would love to act and be in commercials and movies like yourself but have procrastinated far longer.... I did get a bit of control over my ego by taking parts of it's role away from it. For example, I listed the most common reason for him to take over and I learned how to deal with those catalysts myself so I would not have to turn to the ego to destroy everything in it's path in order to feel better. Researching how to deal with fear is #1. After that, dealing with anger should be #2. From there you should be able to handle the other things that it will throw at you. There is one thing that has stuck with me that might help you deal with your ego. It was attention. It wants to rule. Letting it take over gives it that attention. FIGHTING IT and telling it NO and being ANGRY with it STILL GIVES IT ATTENTION. The best way that I have found is this; when he starts talking and getting all riled up about something, take a step back and say to yourself "I understand what you want and what you are trying to do. I understand, however I not accept." This usually silences mine. Sometimes he throws a hissy fit and tries to weasel in a reason why I am incapable, in which case I just say that line again and move on. There was one incident in high school about 8 years ago in which my ego needed me to step in to protect him! I was very confused, but since I had no emotional attachment to what he was asking me to do, I did it. It was a very different feeling and the thoughts going through my head were very confusing. He was being nice to me. He felt so guilty because he had tormented me since he was "born" and the minute he needed someone I was there. Ever since then we have made a very strange team. It's like having an invisible twin brother and being able to switch places once in a while. I hope it doesn't sound too confusing to you. Now hear I am, almost 23 and he is still here. He went away for a little bit, but came back more than likely due to stress, fear, anger, and helplessness. All those emotions are generated by me and only because I was not able to have the correct outlook on the events that have happened to me. Well, I shouldn't say correct outlook since there would have been many, many correct ways to view those events. Instead I should say that I had an incorrect view on how things should have been. None of the events that have happened to me thus far in life have been traumatic or life shattering. Worse thing that has ever happened to me.......yeah been thinking for five minutes already and that just shows that nothing really bad has ever happened to me. If you meant me on the street I'd be just as normal as you....I hope. :) I don't even know you, and as far as I have read I don't know anyone else who described exactly what was happening to me. I want to thank you for sharing this in such a public place. That took real guts and to stand up to your ego like that shows real character. I realized that I have only scratched the surface of what I wanted to say, but I'd rather not overwhelm you right now. I hope this blog is still active and I hope we get to talk. I really hope to hear from you soon. Thanks again for posting even though it was two years ago. I'd like to know where your at with the ego now. Good luck with ACTING!!! I hope you got/get something! Anthony And here I thought I was alone. Hi Leon, my name is Anthony. From the looks of it, it has been a while since this was posted. I hope you found the answer you were looking for. Assuming someone did answer you, might you be willing to share the answer with me?
Like you, I have the same problem. I don’t mean in general, I mean the exact same problem….the only differences we have are ethnicity and what we were teased about in grade school. Otherwise it was like I just wrote your whole blog. I took my ego a step further for preservation. He has a name and an complete personality separate from mine. He used to rule over me, however I was protected from anything. At one point there were two of them, both with names and different traits. I do not suffer from Multiple Personality because I am aware of what is happening and I understand the dynamic and use for the ego. I, the scared little boy from the past, used them to hide and protect me because I was so afraid to be judged like I was all my young years. I am what most people call a fragile soul, easily hurt and beaten by the ignorant cruelty of most people. Guess that’s just how some people are. Fortunately, because of our ability to be very empathetic (sometimes to a fault), we make excellent actors. I too would love to act and be in commercials and movies like yourself but have procrastinated far longer….
I did get a bit of control over my ego by taking parts of it’s role away from it. For example, I listed the most common reason for him to take over and I learned how to deal with those catalysts myself so I would not have to turn to the ego to destroy everything in it’s path in order to feel better. Researching how to deal with fear is #1. After that, dealing with anger should be #2. From there you should be able to handle the other things that it will throw at you.
There is one thing that has stuck with me that might help you deal with your ego. It was attention. It wants to rule. Letting it take over gives it that attention. FIGHTING IT and telling it NO and being ANGRY with it STILL GIVES IT ATTENTION. The best way that I have found is this; when he starts talking and getting all riled up about something, take a step back and say to yourself “I understand what you want and what you are trying to do. I understand, however I not accept.” This usually silences mine. Sometimes he throws a hissy fit and tries to weasel in a reason why I am incapable, in which case I just say that line again and move on.
There was one incident in high school about 8 years ago in which my ego needed me to step in to protect him! I was very confused, but since I had no emotional attachment to what he was asking me to do, I did it. It was a very different feeling and the thoughts going through my head were very confusing. He was being nice to me. He felt so guilty because he had tormented me since he was “born” and the minute he needed someone I was there. Ever since then we have made a very strange team. It’s like having an invisible twin brother and being able to switch places once in a while. I hope it doesn’t sound too confusing to you.
Now hear I am, almost 23 and he is still here. He went away for a little bit, but came back more than likely due to stress, fear, anger, and helplessness. All those emotions are generated by me and only because I was not able to have the correct outlook on the events that have happened to me. Well, I shouldn’t say correct outlook since there would have been many, many correct ways to view those events. Instead I should say that I had an incorrect view on how things should have been. None of the events that have happened to me thus far in life have been traumatic or life shattering. Worse thing that has ever happened to me…….yeah been thinking for five minutes already and that just shows that nothing really bad has ever happened to me. If you meant me on the street I’d be just as normal as you….I hope. :)
I don’t even know you, and as far as I have read I don’t know anyone else who described exactly what was happening to me. I want to thank you for sharing this in such a public place. That took real guts and to stand up to your ego like that shows real character. I realized that I have only scratched the surface of what I wanted to say, but I’d rather not overwhelm you right now. I hope this blog is still active and I hope we get to talk.
I really hope to hear from you soon.
Thanks again for posting even though it was two years ago. I’d like to know where your at with the ego now. Good luck with ACTING!!! I hope you got/get something!

Anthony

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